Mae Breakall

So, we all know that the core of my struggle is fear. We know that I'm particularly attacking that and asking for deliverance in my life in that area. This week the topic in my bible study is knowing God in order to better experience his love through knowing His will in our lives. Great [...]

This is what is true:-I am incredibly blessed with a wonderful husband and daughter, all my physical needs met, a church family and some friends who live further away who give me incredible support. My life as it is is good.-there is no reason to think we are not going to have more children, except [...]

Today during my devotional time and after, I've been trying to identify the lies that are contributing to my heartache and root them out. One of the biggest is that I don't "deserve" more children, and that's why I don't have them.  It's a lie because none of us deserve children and God gives them to [...]

Oh, Abba, Please grant me joy and peace on this journey. Return to me the magic and contentment that filled my days not long ago. Please give me patience and peace in your timing, keep me from comparison and the jealousy that saps my joy. Please deliver me from fear, making my trust in your perfect [...]

So, the scripture reading for Friday, which I was unable to do until today was psalm 86:15. It's a fantastic and comforting verse, but I realized there was one part in particular that is extremely crucial to my struggle. The words "abounding in love and faithfulness" jump out to me. I've shared before that I have [...]

So, last week, our church started a sermon series on the Beatitudes(Matthew 5:3-12) with a teaching on v3 "Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven". The pastor talked a lot about being "at the end of your rope. Yes, I could relate to that. The past 7 months have [...]

So, here we are, in the "baby dance" phase of our second clomid cycle. I want to be optimistic and hopeful and expect good things, but I have to be honest, after last month, after 3 weeks of really being sure I was pregnant, I'm finding it hard to do either. I've decided to do [...]

So, I need to fill my waiting time actively and productively. This will reduce stress, make time go faster, and hopefully keep me too busy to dwell. Some of these goals will have dates associated, some will be for the whole month/cycle.They'll fall under these categories: spiritual, marriage, Lexi, fitness, home. Spiritual:-consistent devotions/prayer/prayer for others-spend more [...]

So my period came yesterday. Disappointment isn't even the right word. I'm emotionally and physically exhausted, frustrated, confused, and don't want to ride this roller coaster anymore. I'm struggling with my faith more this year then I ever have before, and I have to ask myself why. I mean, I know the events that have led [...]

Folks, I feel so overwhelmed. I haven't tested yet to confirm that I'm pregnant-we were planning on waiting 2 more days, but may test tomorrow-but I'm more sure than I've ever been. And possibly more afraid. I've said that I don't need to know why we lost September baby, and I don't, but I'm really [...]