Mae Breakall

Declan, D-Zilla, D, D Monster, Bub, Bubby, Bubster, my Baby Duck. I can't believe you're two-I kinda don't want to. You're not a baby anymore, and that is both heartbreakingly sad, and very exciting to me. You're probably my last baby, biologically, anyway, and so, admitting you're a full on toddler and boy, is the [...]

Almost three years ago, I started a Bible Study called You Are Loved. (The story of that and my experience with it can be found in June/July of 2014 on this blog.) The memory verse for the first chapter was Zephaniah 3:17 and while I may have read that verse before, it felt new that day. [...]

I need prayer, y'all. I'm tired. I'm tired of fighting. I'm tired of feeling afraid and weak, and depressed. I have an amazing husband and children, but I can't enjoy them nearly like I'd like. My anxiety limits me in ways I'm too ashamed to share with almost anyone. A glimpse: I panic and fret [...]

So, I'm in that limbo where I am trying to ignore the fact that external/aesthetic changes aren't apparent yet-again. It's hard, like always, but fortunately I'm familiar enough with my body to know it *will* happen, and I won't notice while it is, but suddenly, one day... boom. I am making progress though. I got up [...]

Is it possible to feel discouraged and defeated but also more driven than ever to overcome? I'm discovering that it is. That's where I'm at today. I kinda knew my results from level 1 would be abysmal because of my swelling and where I am in my cycle. But I'm still bummed. I struggled soooo hard through [...]

Tomorrow I'll be a quarter of the way through this round of BodyShred! That's both encouraging to realize and a little...meh. I've really struggled through every workout, not kicking butt like I thought or hoped I'd be the second time around. I lost most of the last 6 weeks of 2016 to mental and physical [...]

I've got so much to process and write about and share as we begin this new year. Some of it is a bit too raw to dig into quite yet, so I'm gonna back burner it for now. I'm beginning to get my feet under me, though, and see how the themes in my outlook for [...]

Happy New Year! I've got lots to process as we start 2017, but this post is just a check in as I start round two of Bodyshred and reset my food for the year. For food, I'm going to be tracking calories and macros, and being as grain and bean free as is practical. I'm starting [...]

I  haven't worked out since November 22. Its December 2. I'm so unhappy about that, but it's not been for lack of drive or desire. It's been entirely not my choice. See, on the evening of 11/21, the first day of my holiday fitness plan, I was eating chili, and I guess there was a bone [...]

That's how far it is between this day and my goal date for my BIG goal. My big goal isn't size or weight based. It's not getting back to Pre-Baby body (I'm fitter and smaller than I ever was before Lexi, and almost where I was before Declan in size, though not weight.) It's not [...]