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3 weeks into this Bob Month I'm getting stronger and fitter for sure, and that's awesome. I'm probably getting a little smaller too, but it's hard to tell, because, whether I want to believe it or not, I'm pretty small (for me) and there's just not that much left to melt off. I am still [...]

I want to write more about the fertility journey and -God willing- pregnancy experience this time, so I'm going to start now. Hopefully I'll get to record the mental/emotional experience, and maybe process things that don't make sense in my head or seem overwhelming by "talking" them out, and record and remember more of the [...]

It's become everyone's theme song, which irks me, because I hate feeling like a bandwagon rider, but this morning when we finally saw Frozen, I wept openly like a child, because I, in so many ways, have been Elsa most of my life. I've lived in fear, in shame, hidden my light, let others tell [...]

Father, You know all of me. You know all the ugliness I am struggling against right now, and the whole situation surrounding it. You know all the hearts involved and all of our weaknesses, and also our desires to glorify you, even if we aren't always good at it. You know how I've hurt and how [...]

Well, just like everything else since she was conceived, weaning Lexi was much less dramatic, scary, stressful, everything than expected. We are now ten days into my plan, and not only has she not nursed, she hasn't even asked. The final test for me was last night when it was time to take a shower [...]

Tomorrow begins my new workout program, and I'm giving myself a pep talk. Just do your best. You don't have to rep out on everything. Start with the weights that work for you, you can work up to bigger ones. You can hit pause whenever you need to, and by the end of five weeks [...]

So, March is gonna be a big month for me, fitness wise. We are planning on resuming baby two efforts in April sometime with the help of Clomid, so this is my last full month of all out training. I have plans for a fairly intense April, but March is going to be very focused. I'm [...]

I've really been struggling, for almost two months now, to forgive someone, and the person it's hurting is me. I guarantee she isn't giving the situation a thought, but it's been eating and eating at me. I feel like on an interpersonal level, I've handled it lovingly. All of my communication with her has been [...]

I didn't want to have to make this choice.   Losing September Baby and my doctor's advice in the aftermath (to cease baby making efforts until Lexi is weaned so that we can go straight for clomid and hopefully avoid another loss) led to a fork in the road, though. I could either continue nursing [...]

I'm hoping to write about what God is doing in me and teaching me through the traumatic roller coaster that was January of this year, but this is not that post. I am too sad and exhausted right now to look back. Instead, I'm going to look forward and share our plan to move forward [...]