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So, I need to fill my waiting time actively and productively. This will reduce stress, make time go faster, and hopefully keep me too busy to dwell. Some of these goals will have dates associated, some will be for the whole month/cycle.They'll fall under these categories: spiritual, marriage, Lexi, fitness, home. Spiritual:-consistent devotions/prayer/prayer for others-spend more [...]

So my period came yesterday. Disappointment isn't even the right word. I'm emotionally and physically exhausted, frustrated, confused, and don't want to ride this roller coaster anymore. I'm struggling with my faith more this year then I ever have before, and I have to ask myself why. I mean, I know the events that have led [...]

Folks, I feel so overwhelmed. I haven't tested yet to confirm that I'm pregnant-we were planning on waiting 2 more days, but may test tomorrow-but I'm more sure than I've ever been. And possibly more afraid. I've said that I don't need to know why we lost September baby, and I don't, but I'm really [...]

I'm continuing to be frustrated with my workout performance. It makes me both hopeful (that I'm pregnant) and annoyed (because if I'm not, this is not ok, and I didn't go through this early in my pregnancy with Lexi...at least not that I can remember). I got through level 2 of Killer Abs today and [...]

I woke up with that moment of "I have something to be excited about!" Like Christmas morning or the day you are going on vacation. Then I remembered-well, maybe. I've never struggled so much with the waiting. I mean, I suspected I was pregnant in December before it was time to test, but I suspected [...]

So this morning during our walk I started a familiar line of thinking:"If you're not pregnant this month you could just close the door and not try to have more children. Look how wonderful Lexi is. Look at how fit you've gotten. You could keep your body and your one easy child and just enjoy [...]

I'm writing about this a lot, but it's because if I have to go through this whole TTC thing again in a couple years I want to have a record of what it was like this time around. And because talking things out is how I process and feel better, instead of letting them build [...]

My period isn't due till Thursday, but I feel like someone might already be growing inside me...at least I hope so. Because if not, I'm very frustrated. My workout performance last week was abysmal compared to what it has been. Also, I'm feeling bloated and swollen round the middle and holding a few extra pounds, for [...]

Well, sort of...The past few weeks I've been practicing listening to my body more in my resistance training and in cycle trying to keep my heart rate at or below 85% mhr in preparation for becoming pregnant again. Now, I did none of this while trying to concieve Lexi and had no problems, which is [...]

It's way too soon in the cycle to suspect pregnancy in a concrete way, but I'll admit I'm having bursts of excited hope!  Last week (ovulation week) my performance in cycle was not what it has been, which I expected to a degree. However, the lightheadedness, shortness of breath, elevated heart rate, craving for beef, [...]