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Tomorrow I'll be a quarter of the way through this round of BodyShred! That's both encouraging to realize and a little...meh. I've really struggled through every workout, not kicking butt like I thought or hoped I'd be the second time around. I lost most of the last 6 weeks of 2016 to mental and physical [...]

I've got so much to process and write about and share as we begin this new year. Some of it is a bit too raw to dig into quite yet, so I'm gonna back burner it for now. I'm beginning to get my feet under me, though, and see how the themes in my outlook for [...]

Happy New Year! I've got lots to process as we start 2017, but this post is just a check in as I start round two of Bodyshred and reset my food for the year. For food, I'm going to be tracking calories and macros, and being as grain and bean free as is practical. I'm starting [...]

I  haven't worked out since November 22. Its December 2. I'm so unhappy about that, but it's not been for lack of drive or desire. It's been entirely not my choice. See, on the evening of 11/21, the first day of my holiday fitness plan, I was eating chili, and I guess there was a bone [...]

That's how far it is between this day and my goal date for my BIG goal. My big goal isn't size or weight based. It's not getting back to Pre-Baby body (I'm fitter and smaller than I ever was before Lexi, and almost where I was before Declan in size, though not weight.) It's not [...]

 I finished Bodyshred on November 11, and it felt so good, but also kind of anticlimactic, and I'm not sure why. I never really expected to finish it able to do everything the workout asked of me, and I am proud that I fought through that last week, when the workouts were so hard it [...]

I think we all struggle with comparing ourselves to others. It's natural, something in our DNA, to compete, probably a survival thing. But it sucks. It's not fair, and it's not productive outside a survival or competition (like for a sport or game show type thing) context. It saps our enjoyment of who we are [...]

Note: I was told about 7 years ago to stop marking this anniversary and "move on" by a couple people I consider close friends, and I was told the same only a couple months after our second loss by a family member. I realize that not everyone sees pregnancy loss as a big deal, or [...]

I've finally realized that the best analogy for the fluidity of my mental/emotional state these days is the tide. It's cyclical overall (cuz it's hormonal, duh) and yet, a riptide (calm at the surface, treacherous below--caused by triggers, some predictable, some not ) is always possible, and tidal waves are a thing too. High tide [...]

Last week, before the news was (as) flooded with the stuff we are seeing the past few days, I was on a walk with the kids, and a young man was walking a bit behind us, playing his music-which was fine except I was struck by a thought-what if Lexi hears, and what if she [...]