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From our first email exchange, over a week before we met, E spoke of seeing where God leads, in regard to our therapeutic journey. I found this comforting right away, and it cemented my sense that God was already leading, and had led me to *her*.  That phrase, or something like it came up again [...]

I have the tendency to be an all or nothing gal. I also thrive on routine, and feel more free to be spontaneous and mix it up when I have a consistent routine in place. None of this is a bad thing-it's good, because kids need structure and routine too. BUT- the flip side is [...]

Oh, My Lexi. My vibrant, funny, brilliant, creative, expressive, passionate, emotional, energetic, loving, wild and crazy girl. I can't believe you're five already. Your baby years are behind us, and you're crossing the bridge from little girl to big girl faster by the day. I'm So proud of you in so many ways, and mystified [...]

I am not bold. I am generally outgoing, I'm warm, I'm friendly, but I'm not bold. I hate risk, and I especially hate if the risk is rejection. If I introduce myself to you or come talk to you one on one, it's a huge deal, because I am so insecure and I'm pretty much [...]

I did not really want to go to therapy tonight. I wanted to see E, wanted to share what I've been thinking and feeling and what God is showing me about Himself and myself, and where he's calling to my heart (and oh how my heart aches for Him, Y'all. How I amhungry for Him, [...]

A lot of what I have to say has been said before, but when someone asked me today what I thought contributed to my feeling better this morning than in months, I realized I had SO much to say to answer that. This is going to be stream of consciousness again and will veer off [...]

I wish I could write here about the roller coaster of the past eight months, about the sadness, the fear, and the beauty and the healing-because it's all important- ut I just can't find a way, because telling my story would be telling a story that involves other people, and I really try not to do that [...]

So I meant to do this more often, but it's a roller coaster in my head, so here we are. I've got two therapy sessions under my belt, and I'm really feeling good about this in a long term view, though it's really scary and overwhelming to think about the work. I love my therapist already [...]

Ok, so the past week was one of both progress and frustration. I'm gonna break down what was good, what was bad, and what was downright ugly. Good: I'm definitely getting stronger and fitter-for the most part I'm able to get through each circuit without pausing for a break, which used to be "normal" but 2 [...]

So, I've been back at it for a few weeks now, but haven't had the time or resources or focus to write.i can't really talk about my lost late  March and all of April, as cathartic as it would be, because i can't write without saying something negative about some people, and you know what [...]