I'm super tired lately, and feeling intense effects of that on my physical and mental well being, but it's also good, because I have a tendency to go all in headfirst and overload and overwhelm and burn out and quit, and I'm learning to recognize what my body and mind need vs what I want, [...]
Category: Postpartum depression
Momming with Mental Illness
Hey Y'all! I've decided to begin a series on how my mental illness interacts with my parenting in different areas. I figure that if i am facing these challenges, I can't be alone, and maybe sharing how I struggle and how I cope will encourage and embolden others. Maybe there will even be a few [...]
Knowing where I am so I can see where I’m going. (part one)
I'm making an attempt to see situations that challenge me mentally and emotionally as opportunities. Opportunities to better understand myself, my illness, where I'm at with my illness, opportunities to help loved ones understand those things better, opportunities to see if I'm ready to test my limits or if I should respect them right now. [...]
His Power, My Weakness
That's what this week has been all about. I knew something was off when I came out of therapy on Monday night feeling dejected. It was a very good session, with lots of me getting to share victories and growth and a lot of positivity- there's no reason I should have felt down. Tuesday I [...]
Overtired
I had something more fun I wanted to write about today. It was gonna be funny and insightful and, hopefully inspiring. It still will be, when I write it. But today, I need to be real about a different topic, and maybe it'll still be inspirational, but in a different way. Maybe it'll make you [...]
Small Changes, Big Improvement
Just because the growth isn't in public places and visible to everyone doesn't mean it's not happening, that it's not good or significant. -EI feel like so much is changing in me for the better. I also feel ashamed (there it is again!) that from the outside, unless you're in the extreme inner circle, you [...]
Shame and saying no
I hate saying no. It makes me literally sick to my stomach. I'm an extreme people pleaser by nature, and I hate disappointing anyone, maybe partly out of fear that I'll lose their love or affection. That has been magnified during this season of struggling more intensely with my mental health. Sometimes I have to [...]
Quick fitness update 7/29/17
I haven't written much about exercise lately, and I know y'all are missing the play by play. (Sarcasm) seriously, though, a lot has been happening in this area. No, we have not achieved #ropesngunsnabs, yet-but many changes, nonetheless. I'm getting my mojo back! No, not in that way-well, yes in that way, but that's not [...]
PPDA Progress
I'm a little nervous to say this, but I think we might be through the worst of this. It's been a few weeks, and it feels like overall things are better. Things are still hard, and some days and parts of days are really hard, but looking back, I just can't believe how far I've [...]
Postpartum Depression and how I’m treating mine.
I have postpartum depression and anxiety. Just like with "regular" depression, there are good days and bad days, easier weeks, and harder ones. It took me four months to accept that this was even my reality, and there are a couple reasons for that. One is that I feared that if I admitted it, it meant [...]
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