Walls of glass,
Crystal clear, six inches thick
I live within
People pass, see me here
They don’t see the walls
So they Call me to come
But I’m stuck
The light dances, the world shines
Blessings abound, and all mine
But they lie outside
And there’s no door
I want to come!
I want to go!
I want to bathe in the sun and breathe the fresh air!
But these walls.
I hear life calling, I want to go play
Some days I feel the glass thinning
So close to breaking free
But then a shift, and they’re thicker than ever
I’m not weak, I’m not a coward
The walls are thick- I can’t force them thinner
I’ve tried and tried- see my scars?
Even a palace can feel like a prison
When you cannot leave it
You’ve had a taste, these last two years
Of isolation and being trapped
I’ve been in this glass box for five years now
Since my Pandora’s box cracked wide
Battling while wounded saps all strength
Healing and fighting all at once
I reach for truth and freedom and my
Fingertips feel only glass
Six inches thick
Some days thinner
Some days a warm ray of sun
Others a moment of cool breeze
Many days the clouds of shame
Obscure my view
Of this blessed life
I’m in this box, but I’ve not given up
I want to go!
I want to play!
I want to live and give and hug and laugh
A people person without her people
Barely feels like a person at all
But every day I look above
I know in time they’ll thin for Good
I know Whose plan for me is perfect
And I test the walls every day
While I’m here, I’ll learn and heal.
There is purpose to this pain
And He will use it well.
You don’t have to understand
Just don’t give up
On asking for His Healing
Maybe not today
But I know it is.
I’m getting stronger
They’ll get thinner
And before I know it
Just from a tap
Of my fingertips