Last Friday I hit my lowest weight since before I got pregnant. (I hit my lowest in 8 years while pregnant.) I was really excited, since I haven’t worked out since June and hasn’t weighed myself in ages. Then I saw some pictures from when we took Lexi to play in the fountain at a local mall. I looked HUGE (for me) in these pictures, and not at all the way I look in the mirror. I’m confused, frustrated, and a little heartbroken. I know part of it is the way my skin hasn’t pulled back in around my middle, but it looks like fat and makes me want to cry and throw up. I don’t want to look like a supermodel. I just want to be healthy and not cringe when I see pictures of myself with Lexi.