Well, it’s been awhile, hasn’t it? This is the first Wellness Wednesday post I have written in years that won’t be in my wellness book, because… I published it yesterday!

You can find it here: https://read.amazon.com/kp/embed?asin=B0BV4MRKN8&preview=newtab&linkCode=kpe&ref_=cm_sw_r_kb_dp_BNRQ9E511X8XDDA86Z6F

I hesitated to dive into writing this today, because, honestly, I’m not in a great place. I would much rather come back to this when I’m happy and charged up and rearing to go- but, that’s not real life, and I am all about real life. The reality is that I slept terribly last night, the response to my book (in the last 18 short hours) hasn’t been what I secretly hoped, leading to my overtired self wanting to pack writing in altogether, and in my exhaustion having no drive to do any of the things that support my well being.

I’m feeling burnt out, discouraged, like I’m failing at absolutely EVERYTHING, and today I truly want to give up on all the things that I give my time and energy to. Fortunately, my feelings do not need to determine my actions, and I am, one step at a time, pursuing forward motion in small ways, like writing this blog post, eating breakfast, and sitting down with my favorite boy and doing schoolwork.

Let’s dive on into our check in!

Nutrition: I’ve been in survival mode on this most of the past month. it’s a long story, but the short version is that we all got some hind of ick in mid January, and I was knocked down and out for the rest of the month, and really and truly have only been feeling more like myself the past few days. All that said, cooking and planning wasn’t really even on my radar for awhile. Scott did help me prep some egg muffins for my breakfast this week, Bless him and I am super thankful for that.

Going forward, my hope and intention is to make some bolognese for us tomorrow, and plan our meals on Friday for the next week, as well as prepping anything i can on Sunday evening for the week ahead. Friday will begin my third week of a magnesium loading protocol, and i am beginning to feel the effects of that, even though I know it will take some time and consistency to see the full effect.

Rest:I feel like all I have done for almost a month now is rest- but I realize that it’s not restful when you’re spending your days angsting about all the things you want or need to be doing. I haven’t rested well most days or nights because the stress of being “behind” is just too heavy.

Going forward, I am intending to go to bed as close to 10PM as I can, and begin getting up as a consistent time, as well as blocking out time to do what I *want* too, not just what I *need* to.

Exercise: I walked three times last week, and hauled compost some on the weekend. I intended to walk every day this week, especially since the weather is gorgeous, but have yet to be able to, due to work on my book. I also intended to start lifting again, but that has yet to work out either.

Going forward, I hope to, over the next week, walk five or more times, and lift four to five more times (if I get a chance to make up a session on Saturday!), setting me up to keep building my routine.

Self care: I took a few showers! Like everything else, this has been in the tank lately.

Going forward, I intend to get off the couch or wherever I am at 7:30, and go wash my face, as well as doing so in the morning. if I start there, and keep up showers, I’ll be making progress toward where I want to be. There is a lot more I want to be doing in this area, but, as Scott says, gotta start with fundamentals.

Soul Care: Well, I went to church and small group, and had therapy yesterday. That’s something.

Going forward, I hope to get up early again, maybe tomorrow, and have my dedicated Jesus time, consistently. I really need it.

Body image: Nope. Okay, I’m kidding. Sorta. ish. I’m not feeling great about my body right now, either asethetically or based on its performance, but I am sitting with that and knowing that feelings come and go, and that building a foundation on fundamentals is going to go a long way in improving everything.

Body Love : This week I love my body because it’s how i get to cuddle and connect with my three favorite people, and receive hugs from other loved ones.

Thanks for sticking with me through this debbie downer post, and i hope to be much more upbeat next week!

xoxo